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The Reckoning: A Man’s Battle With the Darkness He Carried
The Reckoning: A Man’s Battle With the Darkness He Carried
The Beast Within is the second book in the Rising From the Ashes trilogy — a raw, unfiltered descent into the internal war that begins when childhood trauma follows you into adulthood. This is not a story about what was done to a child. This is the story of what that child became.
Where We Will Stone Him exposed the silent wounds of emotional abuse, The Beast Within confronts the aftermath: the rage, the numbness, the self‑destruction, and the lifelong belief that the only way to survive was to become the very thing you feared.
This book does not sensationalize. It excavates.
What This Book Is About
What This Book Is About
The Beast Within picks up where the first memoir leaves off — but the battlefield has changed. No longer a child trying to survive a chaotic home, John is now a man shaped by it. The emotional wounds that once hid in the shadows now erupt in adulthood as:
explosive anger
emotional shutdown
self‑sabotage
fractured relationships
a constant war between who he is and who he was forced to become
This is the story of a man trying to outrun the monster inside him… only to realize the monster was born from wounds he never asked for.
Through stark honesty and cinematic intensity, John exposes the cost of carrying unspoken trauma into manhood — and the courage it takes to face the truth before it destroys everything.
Why I Wrote This Book
Why I Wrote This Book
For years, I believed the darkness inside me was proof that I was broken beyond repair. I believed the anger was mine, the numbness was mine, the self‑destruction was mine.
But the truth is this:
The beast was built. It did not appear on its own.
I wrote The Beast Within to show what happens when a wounded child grows into an adult without ever being taught how to feel, how to trust, or how to be safe in his own skin. This book is for every survivor who has ever looked in the mirror and wondered:
“Is this who I really am… or who I became to survive?”
Themes Inside the Book
Themes Inside the Book
The Inherited Monster
How trauma rewires identity, emotion, and self‑worth long after childhood ends.
The War Between Silence and Truth
The cost of pretending you’re fine when your entire body is screaming otherwise.
The Collapse of the False Self
What happens when the persona you built to survive finally breaks.
The First Steps Toward Awakening
The painful, necessary unraveling that begins the moment you stop running.
Who This Book Is For
Who This Book Is For
This book is for:
survivors of childhood emotional abuse
men and women who carry anger they do not understand
adults who feel disconnected from their own emotions
readers seeking an honest, non‑graphic look at trauma’s long-term impact
therapists, advocates, and supporters
anyone who has ever felt like they were “too much” or “not enough” at the same time
If you have ever felt haunted by a version of yourself you didn’t choose, you will see yourself in these pages.
Purchase The Beast Within
Purchase The Beast Within
Available in:
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Kindle / eBook
Content Note
Content Note
This memoir deals with childhood emotional abuse and its long‑term impact.
It is honest, but not graphic.
Please take care while reading.
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